As I write this, I am feeling a strange kind of gratitude to my word of 2019. Worth is a weighty word. One that scared me a little when I chose it because unlike my word of 2018, I knew it was the right one straight away. I did not journal or scrapbook this year or complete any of the monthly prompts from the course but despite this, I actually feel like this word has served me more than any I have chosen before; I have had this word at the forefront of my mind at different key moments throughout the year, helping me with significant decisions. Contemplating one’s worth is a vulnerable act so it is not something I have really talked about or written about. But it’s been on my mind a lot.
I took an Ali Edwards Storyology workshop some time ago and have wanted to participate in another workshop but have not managed to find the time. When I saw that her Week in the Life project ran during the summer break, I took the plunge and ordered the kit, knowing that this would make it much more like to happen.
Today is the first day of that week and I am really happy with the photos I have taken to document my day. I still need to work out how I am going to fill the plastic pocket pages but this seems like it will be fun and illuminating as I try to capture the ordinary for a change. It is also one of my 39 Things; I’ve already managed to do 14 of these since 28 July.
When a new year starts, it is naturally a time to reflect back on the year that has passed and look to the future. Last year was a good year. The jubilee and Olympics helped me to fall in love with Britain again. I started my training course and taught my first classes. It was also a time of big change: going from working part-time to a more-than-full-time course was a challenge for me and for my family.
I was looking at Ali Edwards‘s new online class One Little Word and was tempted to participate but I knew that I would have not nearly enough time to commit to it. The idea is that you spend the year focusing on one word that will help you get to where you want to be.
My word would be ‘tough’.
My first term of teaching has made me very aware that I rely far too much on the praise and validation of others. My skin is not nearly thick enough… yet. What I need in 2013 is to be tough. I need to toughen up. I need to tough it out. I need to be tough on those around me and on myself.
I find the allure of making a new list of resolutions impossible to resist so you can see my full list here.